I won't let you close enough to hurt me...

For me the past couple of days have been hard. Yesterday I spent the day lounging in the obscure heat with a picnic in honour of one of my close friends who sadly is leaving us. It was a brilliant way to say goodbye, and I'm convinced the goodbye is not forever, but you never really understand how much people play an important part in your life until they're gone and it's too late.

Also today I woke up, positive today would be another well-spent day. My mood was quickly ruined however by some a very stressing discovery. I don't really want to talk about the details as most of you who read this blog will probably know something about them. I just felt like saying, I feel completely let down by those who I put my faith in and trusted. By nature I'm a pretty anxious person and the news I've had today will probably bug me until everything has been outlined clearly. I'm so sick of things like this happening. Honestly, it can really make you realise just how precarious situations in life can be. Really hope things will be sorted soon, because if they are not, life will continue to go on...after all isn't life rather like a show where all the men and women are players?  I will but on my brave face and as usual if someone says "How are you?"
I'll place on that fake persona and reply "I'm fine thank you, yourself?"
At least if things don't work out as I want them to I will still have those amazing friends with me whatever happens, and their company I shall be glad of.

Sorry for this gloomy post.  I'll probably talk about one of the things I'm getting really into at the moment...
Astronomy and Cosmology.

I've been reading Wonders Of The Universe by Professor Brian Cox this holiday and its so inspiring. Seriously, I'm taking physics next year and this part of it excites the inner nerd in me. The universe is just so fascinating, reading about how rocks also have tides, the first space flights, how weight changes even of earth, and the false dawn make you contemplate just how vastly complex this universe can be. Additionally every time I try to think how vast space is my mind struggles to even imagine it, whilst causing me to recognise just how small we are in comparison to the solar system, milky way galaxy, the local group, and the universe. Perhaps human minds were never designed to envision these great scales...but that does not stop us trying. I seriously would love to get into astrophysics someday...unfortunately I'm not confident in my maths therefore I believe it would be a difficult struggle.
A quote from Carl Sagan at the back of this book sums up my feelings on both life and the cosmos, both with complex structures in their own right.

"Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known."- Carl Sagan 

Hubble Deep Space Image

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