We'd belong there.

I've returned from my D of E silver hike and I have to say it was probably one of the most gruelling things I've done in my life. Walking and camping for three days with a heavy 70 litre rucksack through the Derbyshire countryside (which is VERY hilly) in the heat of the sun, across great stretches of fields, footpaths and bridleways with multiple styles designed for stick people was not really my idea of fun. However I was with three other lovely people and together as a team we made it, despite troubles such as waiting a whole hour for water to boil for pasta, one of us being ill (yet bravely deciding to carry on) and having our tent attacked by sheep in the middle of the night. It was a great experience and something definitely worth writing about. I guess its part of seeking the great perhaps.

Today I've returned to the normal routine, and have started with the hardcore revision again, today starting with english and biology. I don't mind English Lit revision as it mainly consisted of sitting out in the sunshine in the grounds of the nearby Belton House, a big country mansion, and re-reading Of Mice and Men, writing down important quotes in preparation for practice exam essays. To be honest I quite like Of Mice and Men, even if pretty much everyone else in my class hates it. I guess I like the way George and Lennie are looking for their great perhaps too by wanting to "live off the fatta the land" and "get their piece of heaven" and how they use their dreams as an escape from reality much like one of my favourtite quotes "imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia", I think their friendship really is truly remarkable, even if their dreams are shattered by a cruel twist of fate. But that makes the point you see these characters are not in control of their lives, they are realistic and fate decides the outcome of the novel despite "best laid plans". I seriously think people would perhaps enjoy this book if it weren't so analysed already, if we weren't told what every single sentence represents, if we were allowed to explore it for ourselves and instead of answering essay questions, write down our impressions of the novel and what it means to us.

As for the rest of the holidays, I can't say they sound particularly appealing...just revision, revision, revision, although I hope I can get a get together of all my friends at some point so we can spend this last official school holiday with each other. I really can't believe how fast time is passing now, when we return there will only be a few short days until we have officially left and go on study leave. It's a horrible thought almost as it means my life will be moving forwards at a rate I can't control. The people I love will stay in my life I will make sure of it (I'm talking to you my best friends!), the ones whom I never really cared for will probably disappear until some high school reunion or a chance meeting in a supermarket, and the people I am yet to meet will appear on the horizon. In a metaphorical sense we're all migrants like the characters in Of Mice and Men, we have very little control over our fate, we move through life without much choice, and it is the best friends we have who will stick by us in all circumstances and whom we hope will share our dreams to find a place where we'd all belong.

wow. I went off on a tangent there. I'll leave you with some pictures and quotes to finish off todays blog because its been a while, and my tumblr is filling up with all these wonderful quotes and pictures!

"There is no such thing as a bad idea- only poorly executed awesome ones"- Damon, The Vampire Diaries

"Everywhere we look, complex magic of nature blazes before our eyes." - 11th Doctor


"Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as understood"- George Orwell, 1984

"In dreams we enter a world which is entirely our own"- Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter

"You just use the future to escape the present"- John Green, Looking For Alaska

"We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well, death will tremble to take us"

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?"

April Showers? More like April Sunshine :)

I haven't blogged in a few days, sorry guys- I've been making the most of the weekend sunshine and unusually warm weather, so much so that I've got sunburn in the process :(  Not much really happened today, so I'll just ramble about the weekend.

Saturday was amazing, I spent the whole day with my best friend Charlie who visited for a sleepover! She gave me the sourest, most evil sweet I've ever tasted to see my reaction (which was me with watering eyes, and disposing of said sweet quickly) which I'd been dared to taste. Then, we went outside into the summer sun to eat some rather tasty ice lollies I had made the day before, as expected they were delicious and brought back memories of  previous summers spent eating ice creams as a child...ahhh memories.

Next we went indoors and had a bit of a film fest, watching my favourite childhood movie Spirit, and later Mamma Mia which was showing on TV. Finally after a day out in Nottingham, my parents returned with a chinese for us to quickly munch on before heading back upstairs to catch an episode of Merlin before we went to bed.

In the morning (after having a strange dream about visiting NASA with my triple science set and overpriced snacks on the return flight from America), I went riding as per usual, although my legs are now dead from the amount of non-stirrup work I had to do, once again I was on the lovely Marj who at least didn't try to chuck me off whilst in so much agony :L

The rest of the day was spent productively, much to my surprise as with the summery weather, I could go outside to revise Biology, Chemistry and Physics which was actually a pleasant experience for once due to the fresh air and sun. Therefore bring on the summer weather more often- I may actually get through the tons of revision that way!

Cool shadow picture thingy.

Summer sunshine! :)

Me and Charlie and the lollies!

All the strange, strange creatures...

Another music inspired title for my blog, this time one of the pieces from dr.who, which I am so excited is returning on 23rd April. I'm proud to admit that I have been watching that show pretty much every summer since it was brought back with Ecclestone as Nine, though my fave doctor is Ten, his performances were so amazingly believable, I like Matt Smith as  Eleven and I think he'll only get better as the series progress, but I think he needs time to develop into the role a bit more.

Anyway onto today...
So I get back from a lesson of additional maths  (which I'm not sure why I bothered taking it anyway it can get that confusing), and return to PE to find they've taken away the option to do trampolining. Therefore I was forced to go on a bike ride out into the countryside, I believe it will be a nice gentle pace and good fun out in the sunshine...only to find the bike is awful, the pace hard to keep up with, my chest is tight from asthma and my legs end up aching for hours afterwards. This is when I realise why I hated cycling in the first place, and haven't ridden one properly in around two years. Can't say todays experience made me want to participate in cycling again.

I'm loving the weather at the moment though, its so nice to just sit here in shorts and a strappy top blogging. And the weekend is looking so promising, my best friend is spending the weekend with me and we've proabably got a million and one plans for such a short period of time! :) Bring on the weekend I say!

Purpose.

My time left at Belvoir High is dwindling, I've counted I have around 21 days left in which to finish modules, ask questions and spend time with my friends for those last precious lunchtimes before study leave. I really can't believe I will be leaving that place, nowadays it seems so natural to awaken, catch the bus, register with the form, do lessons, socialise with my friends...yet next year I'll be somewhere totally different with a whole new routine.

Thinking of routines, its weird how much as a species we've come to rely upon them.Without a daily ritual, you could ask the question...what's the point of our existance, as so many have done before. Never has anyone come up with a singular correct answer, and indeed we might not even know what correct is in this case. Our lives nowadays and for centuries have been based upon a role or routine, without a routine I believe we become disorientated, wandering aimlessly for some purposeful task- perhaps you could argue the point of our existance is to find something purposeful and make it our point! I've been thinking about my future a lot recently, and like many I feel the need to make a difference- to do something purposeful with my life.  I've wanted to be a vet since I was little, and ever since then I made my purpose to achieve that dream by working hard in class and getting experience. Sure, this may be my dream, and it will make a lot of difference to animals whom I may be able to help, but I also want to do something for people too...who know what that will be. I guess I'll have to take my opportunity in life and include it in the routine.

Now for my fave pictures of the day!

It's only been a year but it feels like a lifetime here...

We've moved into April now and the sudden realisation has hit me that exams are only next month. I've got a revision timetable which I intend to stick to, however looking at the amount of work I need to cover makes me full of anxiety...I'm one of those people who hates the unknown, and not knowing whether I'll be ready or not scares the hell out of me cause I really want to do well and get my target grades, especially in the subjects I love and want to take further such as Biology, Chemistry, Physics and English Lit.

Tommorow I shall get the telescope out if there's no cloud cover, kind of excited in a nerdy way! Apart from that guess my weekend will mainly be revision with breaks inbuilt for finishing off 1984- I'm really intrigued by this book, so desperate to know what happens!

I'm loving the feeling of spring though ,it especially feels close to Easter with all the cute baby lambs around (I saw one escape from a field earlier and there was some drama surrounding the way in which it was handled by the farmer which disturbed the whole English class), and with spring will eventually come summer! So excited for when I get my freedom again! I'm especially feeling the summer vibe with the Vaccines new album, I've pretty much fallen in love with their music since my friends introduced them to me!

Tonight I'm off to Explorers to take part in a cooking challenge- I've never really had much interest in making food, only ever really cared about eating it, so my cooking skill are somewhat limited, but it'll be an experience. I think we're cooking some sort of italian spinach lasagne and an apple tart for pudding- sounds nice!

Sorry my blog isn't particularly interesting today, wasn't too sure what to write about- maybe I'll find some interesting facts or something for you all for the next blog as a way of procrastinating from all the revison I'll have to do